Relationship

The base of our soul, the cornerstone of life. It’s all built on relationships, relationship with our creator, relationship with the circle of people we’re given to be with on our journey.

When I see the word “relationship” I see two words, relation, and ship. Are we all, “ships passing in the night” and as our ships sail we stop here and there to relate to our fellow human beings? Were we made by our creator to build and enjoy relation-ships?

I’ve heard it said often ”people are searching for healthy relationships.” just what is a healthy relationship? In my existence, I can share that I spent many years in pain and self-medication, and at that time had what I consider unhealthy relationships. No-fault of the people around me, it was all on me. My life was toxic and crumbling right before my very own eyes.

Here’s something to ponder, ”even if you don’t acknowledge our Lord, you have a relationship with him!” You have too, there is no way around it, he’s the Father waiting for you to come home from wherever your ship has sailed and docked.

Do we have a relationship with ourselves? I believe so, my life came to a point where I looked in the mirror and despised that relationship! Have you ever been there, have you ever asked yourself ”how did I get here?” For me, I really didn’t know how I faded into who I was. Things in life can happen that way, a slow fade over time, a degree off course for our ship, and after a while our relation-ships fall apart. Our relation-ships become unhealthy! Sadly many relation-ships never recover from a ship that has veered off course.

Gods word says we need a relationship with our Lord.

Matthew 22:37 Jesus declared, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’

And we are to have a relationship with our fellow lovers of Christ.

Hebrews 10:25 Let us not neglect meeting together, as some have made a habit, but let us encourage one another, and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

There you have it, our Lord made us for relationships. When we build those relationships with him at the center.. nothing will break them apart!!!

Relationship

The base of our soul, the cornerstone of life. It’s all built on relationships, relationship with our creator, relationship with the circle of people we’re given to be with on our journey.

When I see the word “relationship” I see two words, relation, and ship. Are we all, “ships passing in the night” and as our ships sail we stop here and there to relate to our fellow human beings? Were we made by our creator to build and enjoy relation-ships?

I’ve heard it said often ”people are searching for healthy relationships.” just what is a healthy relationship? In my existence, I can share that I spent many years in pain and self-medication, and at that time had what I consider unhealthy relationships. No-fault of the people around me, it was all on me. My life was toxic and crumbling right before my very own eyes.

Here’s something to ponder, ”even if you don’t acknowledge our Lord, you have a relationship with him!” You have to, there is no way around it, he’s the Father waiting for you to come home from wherever your ship has sailed and docked.

Do we have a relationship with ourselves? I believe so, my life came to a point where I looked in the mirror and despised that relationship! Have you ever been there, have you ever asked yourself ”how did I get here?” For me, I really didn’t know how I faded into who I was. Things in life can happen that way, a slow fade over time, a degree off course for our ship, and after a while our relationships fall apart. Our relationships become unhealthy! Sadly many relationships never recover from ship that have veered off course.

Check this out! Gods word says we need a relationship with our Lord.

Matthew 22:37 Jesus declared, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’

And we are to have a relationship with our fellow lovers of Christ.

Hebrews 10:25 Let us not neglect meeting together, as some have made a habit, but let us encourage one another, and all the more as you see the Day approaching.

There you have it, human beings were made for relationship. When we build those relationships with God at the center.. nothing will break them apart!!!

Real Deal

We all want to think we’re the “real deal” don’t we? Are we measuring up to our significant other? Are we measuring up to our friends? Are we measuring up at work? And most importantly, are we measuring up to God? Are we the “Real Deal?”

What is the “Real Deal” to our Lord? I’m in a place now where I’m trying to move forward in my walk with him and I’m searching. Do we follow or try to follow the Ten Commandments? Do we toss out those laws and just try to follow our own way? What is a Godly man or Godly woman?

The Real Deal!! In our own minds are we “all that and a bag of chips?” Who gets to measure us in terms of being a Godly man or a Godly woman? I’ve heard it said by many, “oh that person is really Godly”. Does it really matter what others think of us when it comes to our relationship with God?

I guess I’m thinking about all of this right now because I’m entering a season where I’m considering finding a new Life Partner. I enjoy my time alone with our Lord, but I want to share this earthly journey with someone by my side. I want that partner in a Christian way to be the “real deal”, and I want to be the “real deal” for her as well. Just going through the motions, saying all the right things, quoting scriptures etc. Well, all that is good, but I want to “Live CHRIST”. I want him in the center of my being, the absolute center of our being. I want us to fall into his will not out of it. I want to seek his counsel for every step we take.

What a lofty Goal isn’t it? Can we ever achieve being the “Real Deal?” Just writing this out has made me realize the only “Real Deal” is Jesus Christ, and as a very good friend told me, when we accept him, we became “HIS Real Deal!” We must try, we must strive for the finish line, stretch to break the tape. We must have the Goal of entering into his Kingdom when we leave this planet. If we don’t have Goals, aren’t we just replaying each day in a groundhog kind of way. As my good friend also told me, “if we don’t write our goals down, they are just wishes!” I guess that’s what I’m doing, writing mine down.

I’m going to keep running this race, keep honoring our Lord with my faith and actions. My goal for when he comes is he will see me with a new partner with our lamps shining brightly and include us as part of his bride. As I wait, I pray he gives me that new partner for my remaining time here, one that Loves him so. If he does, our wedding day will be joyful. Who doesn’t like a wedding? Mostly I pray we’re all part of his day when he returns to collect his Bride, for that day will be the most Glorious Wedding Day of all with the “Real Deal, Jesus Christ,”

Matthew 3:13-17 New International Version

The Baptism of Jesus13 Then Jesus came from Galilee to the Jordan to be baptized by John. 14 But John tried to deter him, saying, “I need to be baptized by you, and do you come to me?”15 Jesus replied, “Let it be so now; it is proper for us to do this to fulfill all righteousness.” Then John consented.16 As soon as Jesus was baptized, he went up out of the water. At that moment heaven was opened, and he saw the Spirit of God descending like a dove and alighting on him. 17 And a voice from heaven said, “This is my Son, whom I love; with him I am well pleased.”

He is the real deal

The “D” Word

When I hear the “D” word/Death, it brings so many emotions in my heart to the surface. Many things I should have done, many things I should have said, many sorrows follow death don’t they? Yet for a believer of Christ, we trust his promises and believe those sorrows turn to joy. They turn to joy for those who have gone before us that called him “Lord”.

I don’t hear many conversations in my circles either Christian or secular about death. It appears this word is frightening to most and avoided in casual conversation.

Death

Def: 1 : the irreversible cessation of all vital functions especially as indicated by the permanent stoppage of the heart, respiration, and brain activity: the end of life

For the majority of people who read the definition, they believe the last four words to be true, (the end of life). I guess you could reference the old Peggy Lee song (Is That All There Is.) Many in this World do have a Peggy Lee groundhog day existence on this planet.

“Is that all there is, Peggy Lee”

Is that all there is, is that all there is? if that’s all there is my friends then let’s keep Dancing. Is that all there, is that all there is. If that’s all there is my friends, let’s break out the booze and have a ball, if that’s all there is

It’s true many things happen in my heart when I hear this word, yes I have sorrows, but for those I know who chose our Lord, those sorrows in the center of my heart are surrounded by God’s Glory and Joy.

My heart breaks for those who have no hope of life everlasting in the glorious Kingdom of our Lord. For me and my peers now, as we age we realize how quickly we near our own, as this world calls it ”Death”. I believe our last breath here is our graduation into HIS ”Life Eternal” IF ONLY we believe in Him!

Things you won’t find in his Heaven

Sickness

Tears

Racism

Hatred

Politics

Evil

Sin

I believe, we are very close to his return. Just read his word, aren’t all these things happening right now?

2 Timothy 3:1-5

But understand this, that in the last days there will come times of difficulty. For people will be lovers of self, lovers of money, proud, arrogant, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, heartless, unappeasable, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not loving good, treacherous, reckless, swollen with conceit, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God, having the appearance of godliness, but denying its power. Avoid such people.

“Death”, many are fearful of it and don’t want to die. Churches should be filling up right now with people who want to join our Lord in his Glorious Heaven after inevitable ”Death”.

Written in His word, promised by our creator is “everlasting LIFE”, who wouldn’t want that? He defeated death for us all when he rose from the Grave, hallelujah.

This world is temporal, HIS World is Eternal!

1 John 2:17

The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever.

John 3:16

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.

Service

It was September 7th 2019, Anns 61st birthday. Although Anns health had been declining rapidly, I had purchased some rather expensive Red Sox handicap accessible tickets, Annie loved Fenway.

As I recall, the morning started out a bit rough as Annie had an accident I had to clean and then wash the bed linens. We thought about just not making the journey. At this point in Anns illness if we decided to journey out, it would take quite some time to get her ready and going. As the morning transpired, we got her cleaned up, showered and we decided to make the trip into Boston. I knew we were leaving late, but I always felt a joy to have Annie sitting by my side as we drove anywhere. We would listen to worship music, chat about our kids, chat about our future, chat about how God was working in our life’s. Most of all, I could share anything, my failures, my triumphs, my heart with her and she could do the Same with me.

We got to Fenway a bit late, and if you know Fenway finding handicap parking isn’t easy. It should be easy, but it just isn’t. I made the circle around the park a few times and I took a look at Annie, she was just too sick to go into that game and I knew it. Annie knew it too, but she wasn’t going to say it, she was trying so hard to see her beloved team just one more time. Eventually I said, it’s no big deal Honey, we had a nice ride together, let’s drop off the tickets to our daughter across town and head home. We headed to see Shannon, dropped off the tickets and that was nice too for Annie.

As we headed home I took the Pike so we could stop for Annie to use a bathroom and pick up a bite to eat. I pulled into the first rest area, and Annie said “oh no Bill, I think I had an accident” she was in tears. You see at this point in her illness she had no control at times, I had put towels down on her seat, and honestly I didn’t care if she messed in the car, she was so apologetic and I just said, “honey it’s just a car, don’t worry about it”. It took a bit, but we got her out of the car into her wheelchair and luckily they had one of those bigger family bathrooms. We spent some time cleaning her up as best we could and we made our way to the food court. Crazy as this sounds, they had prime rib there and Annie loved prime rib. As funny as this sounds, we had an intimate lunch at a food court at a rest area off the Mass Pike. We laughed, we cried, I looked at this beautiful woman God had blessed me with and thought what an honor to take care of her. I knew her time was short and God would call her home soon. The Red Sox game didn’t matter, this time together did. Our Lord had orchestrated this day.

We finished our lunch and made our way to the car. Annie could hardly stand and couldn’t make it in, I had to pick her frail body up and put her in the car. She was so apologetic and I was so happy just to hold her in any way I could at that time in our journey.

Annie passed away 14 days later, September 21st 2019. This was our last road trip together, our last date. I remember the first time I met her, the first date, our children’s births, the ups and downs, we lived through so many tests and trials in this life. For me, this was our best date as us Mass folks would say “Evuh”! I’m so glad God gave us this last intimate time together. He had me buy those tickets, but in his plan, we were never going to use them.

I got to serve and sacrifice for Annie for many years, the one person God had tied me to as my “wife”. Serving and sacrificing, in so many ways it taught me what true Love really is. I would do it over again a million times, without Christ in my heart I’m not so sure I would have done it once. I learned from my experience with Annie, when you become a Christian, that’s what it’s all about, service and sacrifice for others. Isn’t that what Christ did for us?

I miss Annie so much, but our God is so good.. he gave us that “last” date. Together and I will “Nevuh” forget it.

1 Peter 4:10. Every believer has received grace gifts, so use them to serve one another as faithful stewards of the many-colored tapestry of God’s grace.

Lost

My love, this hole in my heart seems to widen each day. I miss you so deeply and I don’t think anyone can ever realize the depth of this pain in my heart. The waves of mourning overwhelm me when I least expect.

I admit, there were times when you were suffering I asked our God to take you into his heavenly glory. I wish I would have asked him to give us more time. I can’t explain the loss of you and how lost I am without you. I don’t know who I am without you and finding me again seems impossible.

Ann, my Love.. I’m just lost..

Comfortable

Comfortable

In life are we are always searching for a comfortable place? Most times we have to navigate through the uncomfortable to find it. Sometimes it seems unattainable, sometimes it feels so far out of reach.

I heard a pastor preaching on my way to the office recently, and I don’t know if I’m paraphrasing him correctly, but he said something like this.. “if you’re a Christian and everything is fine and easy in your life, I may question your relationship with our Lord”.. you see when we let him into our hearts, we become targets, we enter the battlefield and that battle will at times become intense.

When I accepted Christ many years ago, I felt relief, I felt life will be a breeze now, life will be so easy. Little did I know I was to put on the armor of Christ because accepting Him into my heart was signing the dotted line to joined his spiritual forces. And we battle, we battle with praise, worship, and prayer..

We as Christians must constantly ask ourselves this question, do we truly Love our Lord as he commands? HE said it is his greatest commandment .. Matthew 22:37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’

When we truly Love him, our adversary despises that Love and will attack fiercely for he knows his time is short.

Revelation 12:12, NIV: “Therefore rejoice, you heavens and you who dwell in them! But woe to the earth and the sea, because the devil has gone down to you! … Woe to the inhabiters of the earth and of the sea! for the devil is come down unto you, having great wrath, because he knoweth that he hath but a short time.”

If we allow ourselves to live in untruth, we will never find the comfort we desire. If we live in his truth, comfort will find us. And yes, we will experience discomfort it’s inevitable, but when we do we find comfort in his promises..

Romans 8:18

For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.

He will come again to judge the Living and the dead.. I believe it’s sooner than most of us think,. Are you prepared?

Christmas

I will admit, I struggle to write this year. I guess I wear my heart on my sleeve, I don’t know if that’s good or bad, but it’s who he made me to be. The last few months have been a blur. Time has seemed to melt one day into another as we spin around this Orb. There have been times when I’ve questioned so many things on my journey including our God. Through all we as a family have endured during this Season, our God, our precious Lord and Savior remains faithful.

Its this point where I would usually write each year how Ann and I wish you all a Merry Christmas. Although Annie is no longer with us, I still want to wish all my Friends and family the Merriest of Christmas. This year he has blessed us with a beautiful addition to our family, Maeve Annmarie, and has increased my intimacy with him in so many ways. I want to shout to the World that the only way I have been able to get up most days and lace up the shoes has been enveloped in HIS LOVE.

I’d also like to take a moment to thank every one of you who has commented or sent a message of encouragement to me and our family. Social media gets a bad wrap sometimes doesn’t it? For me, I have so many Loving and caring friends that have taken their precious time to stop by, read a post and comment with words of encouragement. Our Lord states how important the words we choose to let flow from our tongues can be, and your words have helped carry me through on days when my heart was just not ready to move. I hope in some way, the words I’ve chosen to let go from my heart may have helped you in some way. I truly thank you all from the bottom of my heart.

So this day, this first Christmas Day our family celebrates without Annie.. take a moment, look around at the ones who have chosen to spend the most precious gift of all with you, time. Look around and say a quick thank you to our Lord for giving you your people to spend your precious time with. And most importantly take a moment to recognize our Lord and thank him for sending His One and Only Son to make a way for all of us. For his Mercies are everlasting, his forgiveness is new each morning, and his Love is unconditional. I am so thankful that our relationship with him can NOT be broken no matter what we do, he LOVES us so..

May God Bless you and Keep you on this his Glorious day.. Merry, Merry, Merry, Merry Christmas..

With all my Love.. xoxoxo Billy

Work

What does the word mean to you? Are you working? How can we make this work? Does that work for you? Seems like it is a pretty important word in the world isn’t it? 
Does the word work mean anything to God? Can we work hard enough for God to have him Love us more? I think some of us try, I think some of us view God as a statistician, he’s up there keeping score on us, he’ll never let me in. It’s a fine line isn’t it? We really can’t do anything for God that will change what he did for us! When he died for us on that Cross thousands of years ago he did all the Work that will ever be necessary for us!!! 

But what about the old song… faith without works is like a screen door on a submarine!? Here’s my take, when you fall in Love with our Lord serving him is a pleasure and really is just an offering to our God and King! Everything we do on this planet including our work can be offered up to our Lord and done as if we are doing it for him! 

Years ago when I first had God fall on me, I found even the most mundane of chores with a Worship song playing seemed, dare I say rather joyful… thank you Lord for reminding me of that time.. sometimes I forget my responsibilities are easier with you on my heart and mind.. try it sometime, worship while you work, I think he likes that! I know I do…

When we Worship as we work, I believe HE will do a WORK in us… can we make a new word today, workship 

God Bless you all today as you go about your workship… 

Psalm 104:23 Man goes out to his work and to his labor until evening.

Waiting

Many years ago when our children were young, I was at work and Ann called me in a panic. She had just received a call from a man who stated he had taken our daughter. I told her, call the school, make sure she is in school and call me back! I can’t tell you the panic in our hearts when we were waiting. Ann called the school and the office worker went to the class room and our daughter was safe. Turned out this person was looking at press clippings of students in sport leagues and calling the parents to terrify them. Terrify them he did, He was never caught, but when you think you’ve lost a loved one in any way the waiting period is crucifying. From that experience I can imagine the pain in a parents heart when a child is truly lost and can’t be found! 
Waiting, just waiting.. As a parent we all know the feeling of waiting. Even to this day as our children are older now, if they’re in town and staying with us and go out. I wait for them to return home so my mind can relax.

Waiting, thinking about that terrifying experience years ago bings back that terrible feeling. We were only waiting for minutes and our hearts were torn right out of our chests! Makes me think of how the father feels about the lost who are so far away from him. So far away from him for so long! 

The Bible talks about the Fathers Love! The bible states he is Love! Can we fathom the depth of that Love for us? I can’t imagine the hurt he feels when a child of his is Lost… when a child of his walks away from him willingly! And what about when a child of his exits this World without him? Can we imagine the pain he feels as they begin eternity in that horrible way! 

You know that day many years ago when our children arrived home Ann and I hugged them a little tighter and the joy of their safety overwhelmed us. I can only imagine the joy the father feels when one of his children accepts him/arrives home! I guess all I can say today is He’s waiting, just waiting.. Please don’t be one of the Lost… Come home..

Isaiah 30:18 (NLT) 

But the Lord still waits for you to come to him so he can show his love and compassion. For the Lord is a faithful God. Blessed are those who wait for him to help them.